.... Shab-e-khwaab mein ashish ye kyaa ajeeb baat hai ... khwaab dekhte hum hain, aur chunati unhen raat hai ... If only i could control everything that affects me ... in fact, my wish is even simpler ... - only if i could control "some" of the things that happen to me - ... afterall its not that unreasonable, is it? .. lo and behold, its also granted ... only there is a little trick involved that i was not told about ...the things that i am granted full control of aren't the ones that I had asked for.... The little things that changed the face of my life were exactly the ones that i had no control on .... for better or for worse, only time will tell ... but till then, the desperate urge to relive those moments in ways that would turn the events in other direction remains ... not only remains but gets stronger ... and with this urge strengthens the quest for the reason that turned the events in other unwanted direction in the first place ... its afterall but natural to have this quest, ... how else would one turn the events in other direction without knowing the reason??? ... This quest is like air ... it occupies as much empty space in mind as it can find ... sometimes it is so stubborn it refuses to let anything else occupy that space ... usake kaan umeethho tab bhee baahar nahee nikalati. ek haath pakaD ke kheenchkar baahar nikaalane ki koshish karen to dusre haath se kisi chhote bacchche ki tarah majbooti se darwaaze ki chaukhat thhaam leti hai ... and in a lot of ways these small wishes and quests are like small kids .... lovely, coveted, affectionately held close to heart ... and its sometimes very hard to pin-point the reasons behind their actions ... its hard to know sometimes why one wishes something, why one wants the answers to some of the questions, ... yet one wants to hold on to them ...much as one wishes, knowing the answers wouldn't let one turn the clock backwards and alter the course of events ... if it were a scientific research .... it would help one in making a headway ... but something that is so very sentimental, so very volatile, so very sublime, in fact "so very human" ... does not provide one with that kind of luxury ... tanhaai ke in lamhon mein ... aaj reh reh kar ye khayaal aate hain .... wohi lamhen baar baar saamne aate hein jaise waqt guzaraa hi nahee ho ... yaa ye sirf nazaron mein bharaa dhuaan thhaa ... un lamhon mein jinme tum saamne ho .. unhi mein safar kartaa huaa ...waheen pe baiThhaa hoon jahaan tum chhoD gaye thhey ... kabhee beech mein achaanak in lamhon ki laDi tootati hai to tanhaai kaa ehsaas dilaa jaati hai ... haan ... ek kinaare ki tarah akelaa ... beech mein kuchh lamhon ke liye aisaa mehsoos huaa jaise mein dusare kinaare se paani ke zariye juDaa huaa hoo ... jaise dusaraa kinaaraa apne vajood kaa hi koi hissaa ho ... magar ye paani kab rukaa hai? ... har pal behate paani ki ek nayi anjaani boond hamaare beech mein aakar un lamhon ki laDi ko toDati hai .. un mein naye girah lagaati hai ...khwaab ke abra se utaarkar asliyat ke farsh pe laa giraati hai ... phir usee tanhaai mein . phir wohi lamhaa ... pataa nahee kyon nahee guzaraa ... ???? Jaane kyaa sochkar nahee guzaraa ... ek pal raatbhar nahee guzaraa ... jaane kyaa sochkar .. nahee ... guzaraa .... violins, santoor, synthesizer, and santoor play an interlude whih acccntuates that tanhaai which is heightened by KK's powerful voice ... .. apni tanhai ka auron se naa shiqawaa karnaa ... tum akele hi nahee ho sabhee akele hain ... ye akelaa saphar nahee guzaraa ... jaane kyaa ...... the sweet flute which RD used extensively in khushboo [do nainon mein..] reverberates again here .... ...do ghaDi jeene ki mohalat to mili hai sabko .... tum bhee mil jaao ghaDi bhar to ye kam hotaa hai ... ek ghaDi kaa saphar nahee guzaraa .... jaane kyaa soch kar nahee guzaraa ... solemn but powerful tablaa [heavy bass from Daggaa] .. stops with a tihaai even before kishore completes the lines .... and one wakes up from the spell cast by this magical combination ... to relish that awssssome ending lingering meend in "sochkar" by KK ... Thre is someething interesting here in this "Kinara" song that I didn't observe before ... the second line of first stanza should be read as - tum "hi" akele nahee ho sabhee akele hein .- which means in the song ... "akele" and "hi" are iterchanged ... similarly ... in the second stanza - "mil" and "bhee" are interchanged to give the meaning - tum mil bhee jaao to ye kam hotaa hai hai ...sort of consistennsy even in poetic license .. no biggie ... just thought it was interesting .... about "Kinara" .... very sensitive movie ... well made ... the picturization of "naam gum jaayegaa" is extremely meanigful [comments on that some other time may be...] ... all in all enjoyble except for the jumping jack ... whose wooden face is starved of emotions .. even the dialogue delivery is as flat as a freshly opened pepsi cola can :)[sorry pepsi fans] he is the blot on all Gulzar movies ..... if only i knew why he was such a big favourite of this master director ..... the doode has rendered average the possibly terrific movies such as khushboo, palkon ki chhaon mein, parichay, and the list goes on .... but then Gulzar perhaps had the knack of choosing wooden faced male actors ... vinod khannaa in "Lekin" for example ... ashish